I have a big choice to make. I love to run and to run races, though I only get excited about them on race day. It's an outlook I've had about special events for quite some time. I think it stems from working so many holidays, birthdays, and going on deployments. After awhile the specialness just kind of faded away and now I only get excited when other people around me do. I have to feed off their enthusiasm to really get into the moment. I'm sure because of this my wife and kids think I am an emotional vaccuum at times, well, most of the time. But I digress, training for my marathon has taken more and more time away from my family than I really had thought it would. When I go on my longer training runs it really wipes me out. Runs were scheduled for morning times (barefeet and hot afternoon pavement didn't mix well) after work which cuts my sleep time almost in half. A few runs I had done wiped me out so much I slept into the evening to when my kids were going or had gone to bed. Once I slept half of my Saturday away. So back to my choice, drop training and the marathon so I'm not missing out on family time or continue with the race plans.
It is not a question of being able to do it. I know I can. The question is, which is worth more and at what cost?
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